(Molyvos)
The
white tops of the Lepetimnos mountains tower over the north of the
island. Nestled against the mountain, the medieval village of
Molyvos, which consists of houses of dark stone with colourful wooden
extension is given the look of an Afghan mountain village, exotic and
mysterious, by the snowy mountains.
The
harbour offers a splendid view of this rare scenery because winters
on this island are not always provided with a white blanket. It is
marvellous to linger some time there in the harbour where all the
boats are tight up at the quays. A fisherman busies himself in his
kingdom and volunteers walk up and down, some busy with work to do,
others at an easy pace waiting to be called to action.
The
sun is as strong as in spring and warms the bones that have suffered
so much with the intense cold of the past days. Conversations always
roam around the subject of the refugees. What else should one talk
about here, in what some call a war zone. And while my body purrs
with pure happiness because of the heavenly warmth, the wheels in my
brain whirl around, becoming red when a subject passes that agitates
me. The stupid political world-theatre makes me feel powerless and
angry.
Here
on the island you can find the new world, that politicians refuse to
see. Instead of the bankrupt state or the failing Europe, hundreds of
volunteers have come to act. While the Schengen borders are being
closed, they cross borders because they have lost faith in the
politics and have decided to act themselves. Meanwhile boats with
refugees keep on coming, their timetable not altered by any storm or
snow fall, even though some arrivals are a disaster and not everyone
reaches safe ground.
It
is difficult to choose: shall I make a fuss during a discussion or
shall I surrender to the feeling of happiness caused by the warmth of
the sun. Much of the time I no longer know what to do with my
feelings. When I watch out over the sea, I feel love for this superb
surface, that each day offers different views and produces such good
food. When a fishing boat passes over the horizon, life seems to be
good. But when I see a piece of refugee garbage I realize that the
clear splashing water is also a silent killing machine. The fish are
no longer the only ones swimming in the sea.
When
the sea, as it has recently, is fuming with rage and engulfed in
layers of foam, I admire the metamorphosis; then my thoughts take an
ugly turn when I remember that people are forced to cross this raging
mass to find a safe home.
When
the sun takes up her palette and paints the clouds pink and the white
mountains ruby red, I can suddenly feel a fear rising for the coming
darkness, the perfect cover for illegal sea crossings.
When
the friendly smiles of the first anemones appear, your thoughts
wander towards the approaching spring, the time that the island will
be covered with flowers; but a slice of fear comes up too: am I
supposed to enjoy this season, while so many people fight for their
lives?
While
I snuggle under my comfortable warm blankets, I think of the mud and
the tents blown away by a storm in camp Moria and I reach for a book
to forget.
When
I watch over the pure blue sea and see a bright coloured dinghy
passing by and the street fills with all kind of cars, I bow over my
computer to continue my life.
When
I joyfully sing while preparing nice scented dishes, I know that when
the guests arrive, the atmosphere will inevitably change because of
heavy conversations about the islanders who are afraid of what is
coming.
At
the moment, it is not a pretty world for the feelings. This beautiful
island offers so much solace but also causes my heart to bounce from
ying to yang, from black to white, from positive to negative. The
pendulum swings back and forth between happiness and sorrow, between
quietness and rage, between life and death.
Sometimes
I feel quilty because I laugh, because I sleep, because I eat,
because I live. But that does not make the refugees happy. So I put a
smile back to my face, I sleep sweet dreams, eat tasty dishes and
continue my life, that now that it's connected with the refugees, has
taken another turn.
I
release my feelings making havoc. Gratitude moistens my eyes in
seeing so many strangers who choose to come
and help people, and tears will flow when seeing another dinghy
arriving full of anxious eyes and screams.
After
all the waves have risen out of the blue water, and the beaches are
left lonely places calling for the summer; the trees branches get
softly lulled in the whispering wind, and the mountains silently
observe. Life continues, I know; but time and time again this
question rises: are you allowed to be happy in times of so much
sorrow and misery?
(with
thanks to Mary Staples)
©
Smitaki 2016